Happiness like death –2014 Shi Li’s work report
In order to find my own way in drawing, I have been researching the trend in painting, poetry, and music between Eastern and Western for many years. Sometimes I prepare myself to a pious monk who keeping on questioning my painting. Get rid of selfishness and back into my inner, I have returned to a primitive state of doing the daily meditation practice, I feel quiet and happy. All men will enjoy nature and life when they can wipe off the semblance in society, as if man removes the specific image from painting. (Specific image can adversely affect people’s understanding of nature.) So, I shift from specific to abstract.
Painting is like a seed I planted in the soil, I see it slowly grow up under water, rain and sun. The process is fun and has lots of unexpected joy. Just like delving into colors and human touches to the maxima, a new sense produced. In pursuit of the ideal effect again and again, I never lose the resolution of digging into color and feeling nature life. What in thoughts, and what in works. Therefore what my painting experience and present is a sense of smooth in nature, a extraordinary momentum in subtle. Slow and fast is contradictory unity, it is a driving force to me which makes me struggling, and then developing, progressing, being in quiet and positive in the end.
I broke through myself again and again as a season of spring that full of vigor and vitality. I see invisible things such as air, emotions, thoughts, soul, and so on.
Drawing is just like an unknown world, perhaps like the death—we step forward and turn back many a time to be similar to the other world. I try to show it in my work. I countless times finished my work, then destroyed it, and draw again, destroy again until satisfaction.. Repeatedly in the pursuit of the ideal effect is on the higher color resolution, the fascination and the beauty of beauty deeper and higher, more insights on life. Ideas: what’s in, what there is in the works.
I praise nature, life, and the joy of growth and the searching for unknown happiness. Just like sex, men break the orgasm time and time again. I try hard to forget phony impracticality of what I learned in college and I learned under the dictatorship background. Regardless the skills and thought patterns I learned years ago, I pursuit of true feeling and keep cumulative fresh mind in life. Has a sense of pioneer and foresightedness is necessary. Multidimensional space that full of contradictions, ethereal deep Zen, and confrontation with those contradictions, all of them will finally make the old system of authoritarian decay, and the desire for democracy and freedom instead. I make an effort to keep independent thinking and the pursuit of perfect personality. Any art attached to authoritarian regime is a parasite. Therefore, artists need to divorce of material realistic bondage first and hold not only the spirit of times but also the independent temperament to express the true feeling.
Just like a lonely planet gradually grow up in the vastness universe. I like it that way: loneliness and excitement, very comfortable and cozy, without the slightest fear and what exists here is only curiousness and excitement to the unknown. I am enamored of my painting world and I feel happy as if I was dying, but I can come back. So amazing, here is what painting brings me.
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